i realize my life is falling apart... i have no job, no license, and no goals. i lost my two best friends, because of my lack of trust in people and my inability to communicate. i'm relapsing... and i know it, i just don't care to stop myself from doing all this nonsense. i'm not in school, at all and i have no desire to be cause i have no ideal what i want to do. yeah getting my bachelors in youth ministry is a great ideal... but am i really suppose to be a youth pastor? am i really suppose to work in ministry? who knows these things, definitely not me!
i'm find interest in people with terrible habits, and say nothing about it.
i'm not who i want to be, or who i should be.... becuase i'm simply becoming who i use to be.
i know my life is falling apart, and i know this is not the way i should be living... but i'm doing nothing to stop it.
makes me wonder whats wrong with me, but i know whats wrong... i just chose not to change it.
haha its like a never ending circle of "i dont care" when everyone, including myself knows that i do care.
i guess death cab for cutie makes me think...
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