i wish life had a rewind button. than i could rewind life to the day i decided to move, and to the day i asked someones opinion about me moving... and i would listen to them. because i cant change whats happening, and i never will be able to, but i for some reason thought i could, for some reason i thought i was my families personal Jesus. but i'm no ones Jesus, and i wish i had listened to the words i was being told, and listened to everyone around my instead of jumping onto what i thought i was suppose to do, and not what God was telling me to do. and now because of a choice i made, i have lost so much of my life. i lost my happiness, i lost my friends, i lost what i love to do, i lost myself.
and now it feels like the only thing i can do is to go back to where i was, but its not a choice i have at the moment. and i would just be running, cause i cant undo what i've already done, i cant take back the things i've said to people, i cant take back the things i walked away from, i cant take back the ways i've negatively affected people since i've been here.
if i had thought about it longer... and prayed about it more, i wouldn't have done things idioticly.
but there is nothing i can do about any of it now, whats done is done and i cant really be mad at myself for it.
though... i still wish life had a rewind button.
Know you're not alone, ive been in similar symptoms of regret, and it really is frustrating, because you can't go back. Just keep in mind mija, how you feel right now and you feel like you've made a big mess that you can't undo, but God can do anything with it, and just remember where you are now is only temporary. It's just a season. Don't give up on yourself, and He'll pull you back out and it'll be ok. :) Movin' forward.
ReplyDeleteand...i was jammin this song all day tuesday lol :)
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