- lost my two best friends. -i've been putting to much of my faith and trust in them, and not so much in God. idk what His plan is with them and i in the future, but right now i'm trying to get back to how it should be with Him.
- lost my happiness- i've been spending to much time trying to MAKE these things work, but i cant make them work, i can't be someones Jesus... cause i NEED Jesus, and cant be some one else's.... to me a while to get that one... but i'm starting to understand it.
- lost who i am- i did, i was losing who God has called me to be, and who i TRULY am... its hard to remember when i'm constantly reminded of who i use to be. the key part to that is use to be, but no matter who see's it, or knows the truth. I know the truth, and thats all that matters at this point.
notsuppose to be here- haha... this is a very, very, very true fact. but its where i am, and there isn't a whole lot i can do to change that... but that doesn't mean i cant grow, and that i cant become more of the person i'm suppose to be while i'm here. and i dont know how long the here thing will last, but it will till its time for me to leave again... and i want it to be NOW... but i guess i just have to learn patience... cause if i'm here it must mean God isnt done with me being here yet, right?
like i get these are all very obvious things to most people, but i guess in this situation i'm not put into the majority. and i'm okay with that, because i am learning and i am growing... and that is what is truly important in life.
yay mija! man just know, i am or until lately have been struggling with similar things in the first three points! like, losing yourself and realizing your faith was in the wrong people and what not. so i know it can be suuuuuuuuper frustrating! but im real glad that you are gaining new perspective and are moving forward :) i love you
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